Is it sinking in yet? Maybe. Or maybe I'm just too numb to deny it. I think this whole thing is complicated by the fact that Jesse seems so happy and normal. I mean, to anyone who is unaware of Jesse's diagnosis, Jesse is just a normal little boy. Sure, they'd probably pick up on the language issue, but other than that....clueless. I mean, that was ME prior to yesterday. And now I'm noticing things. Things that should have made this less of a shock. The toe walking is happening a lot more than I noticed. The echolalia.
And then there's the fact that this diagnosis explains almost everything we've been through with Jesse since he was 6 months old. The food intolerances (not explained by allergies) and gastrointestinal issues, the sleep issues, the heel cord contracture (which the physiotherapist felt was related to a sensory issue), and the speech problems (delay and regression). Why did I not put this all together before?
I guess it's all moot anyways. The past doesn't exactly matter very much now. We have to figure out where to go from here. I guess we'll be getting a call from the social worker soon. And I placed a $150 Amazon.ca order today for around 10 different books on autism. Maybe by the time they get here I'll be prepared to start reading them.
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